Friday, August 28, 2009


I can't even believe I'm typing this. Annabella has yet another ear infection. She hasn't even been off antibiotics for a week yet, and the ear infections are back on both sides. We're trying an antibiotic that didn't work the last time she was on it, and if it doesn't work this time, she'll have to get antibiotic shots.

To say I'm depleted would be an understatement. I feel that in the war against the ear infections, we've clearly lost. We might have won a battle here and there, but the ear infections, they have clearly beaten us to a pulp. And my daughter is once again in pain.

I feel powerless. I wish I could trade places with her. I wish I could better advocate for her. I wish I could make all her pain go away. But I can't take her pain away. I don't know the right path to take for treatment. And while I hear about how Mom always knows, and to never doubt a Mom when she says her child is sick, I fear that I lack this intuition. And I'm ashamed when I miss the signs because it means my baby has been hurting for longer than necessary. Afterall, I'm her Mom. I'm the one that's supposed to know. And I just don't.

1 comment:

Sugar Bear said...

Oh Amber I am so sorry to hear this! If there is a bright side to this - at least ear infections seem to go away as children get older. Of course, I know that is of no consulation to you now. Have you tried any homeopathic remedies? I remember putting my sore ear on a heating pad used to help a lot.

I also saw your post on H1N1. It has me a nervous wreck as well. Our doctor also said the same thing. I work at a university so I'm especially nervous about a outbreak here and bringing it home. I guess this is just the beginning of a lifetime of mother worries.